To your question
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it is just in general i feel this way. I mean maybe u can say i am surrounding myself with the wrong kind of people but these are the topics most blacks concern themselves with. I just want to feel desired in this society as a black woman. I'm not the type of person that asks for what i can't offer myself.I feel like black chicks are always last choice on the list. If you want a man with goals your asking for too much or its intimidating when your the full package. Almost all my female friends have kids, I don'tand apparently something is wrong with mewaiting until marriage in the black community. Alot of these things just show the break down of black relations. Me wanting alot of these things wouldn't even be a question in the white community. Allthat says to me is your black take what you can get. I want to understand this. I work in corporate america and the people that try to cut my throat at the job are blacks. Instead ofjust being cool for the few blacks that are in the damn place. We don't pull each other in, its just pure venom with one another. Don't get me wrong all of my friends are black, educated, attractive but mentality wise most blacks are still behind on the subject of self love for our people and brotherhood. Its not whining either this is the world we live in and what black people want to see. The new symbol of black beauty is now a mixed blackperson. As if tobe an attractive black person you have to be something else we adopt these feelings within ourselves and i am sick of it. I feel very bitter about these things and i hate the fact that when i express myself to people i am considered too problack it's not that. That is just how it is.