CharI would disagree with you.I don't believe you're lost,I feel you are now found. Before you had an identity which was that of a christian. To have an identity is to have an ego, one must strip themselves of all identity and all ego before they know themselves and their meaning. Once identity and ego's are stripped you are free todetermine any that you choose instead of your life being determined by your identity/ego.Every man is born enlightened but through conditioning and teaching we become lost. Trust your consciousness and intuition, for there lies all the answers you need to know. You will be lead in the direction of the things you seek as if by magic. And that is the magic of thought/prayer. . .love.