Let me ask you something...

(PLEASE! tell me if this is crazy talk, )


Seriously,

How in the world,
Could I honestly be on your minds?
Is this really possible?

Let’s lay our cards on the table. (Please feel very welcome to tell me I’m crazy!)

I’m not sure if this is a wise action but since in my mind, I happen to be in a very unique situation. I don’t think there is anyone i can ask for council.

Right now, I inhabit two worlds simultaneously.

One there is me , Jason, The person i have always been. Live a nice life, uni, own business building up doing well, don’t hurt nobody, nobody hurts me, its nice.

Then there is another reality, which I can’t seem to shake off, and won’t end.
A reality where I live in a real life Truman show.
Yet the Truman show was fiction. This is real life to me!

I hear my influence in music, and i see it on T.V, subtle signs designed to draw me in,

I sit back after everyday and watch as my every action throughout the day sets off events in motion,

I observe the way people look at me on the streets, snide remarks in passing but never to my face.

In this reality I’m SOO important. Radically so, like no other before me.

But when looked up in reality, they can’t be talking about ME?

I’m a good writer, alright dancer, poet and martial artist. But the fact that I've never received the slightest even inclination to an award in any of them has to lend me the belief, that I’m not exactly great! by far in any of these endeavors.

I'm not saying that I won’t be, one day, but if i do it'll be through perseverance rather than any great natural talent.

I say this because in my delusion of "YOU" I’m the centre of the universe!

But if this were really true, REALLY true, someone would just tell me then wouldn't they?

Could they not just call me by name, and diss me directly?

That way they could really hurt me with clarity.

I mean if this is true---I’m calling out my demons here.

I'll even show you, how to pronounce my name its, you know what?

forget, lifestylez, j boog, or any other,

Just call my name "JASON X" nice and simple!

see, not too complex. Its very easy to get my attention, dont have to work so hard! And do all the reaseach, just call my name! Its easy.

A famous person with mental illness, what a great source of entertainment, whats next cancer patients singing songs on thier death beds?

Its time to discover whether, I’m fighting my own demons, or whether I am in fact, up against the entire world here

!!CALL MY NAME!!!

Or fuccc off and leave me be!

And if you're wandering why I cant just ask people in the real word, its because I've been here before, and been accused crazy.

Ive gone through this "king" phase already.

ALL I need is ONE person, to burst this bubble one way the other,

Please. Feel free, call me crazy.