Hi everyone,

I have been having a look around and decided my first post here, would be to ask for advice from you all.

Ok, firstly I am a 20 year old female living in London. I live alone with my father. I have apart time job and am currently looking for full time.

Now, the problem: my life is a mess. I spend alot of time alone because my dad spends the majority of his time with his girlfriend and other children. This depresses me because I have no family to come home to. I sometimes see my mother at weekends, but she suffers from mild mental health problems and I can't trust her.

Lately, I have started overeating for comfort. I am lucky to have a good figure but I am starting to eat until uncomfortably full, and this isn't good. I have considered throwing up after doing this but haven't yet.

I have no social life at present. I have a best friend but I don't like the clubs/places she goes to. I grew apart from my friends at school. I am a perfectionistc, and don't feel I can go out to a club or wherever unless I look what I consider "perfect".

It takes me a while to trust people. Often, when I see men looking at me, i shut them out because I fear letting a man get to me emotionally. I have never had a boyfriend although I want one. When I see men looking at me, at the back of my mind is: "I'm not good enough for him". How do I overcome this?

I am finding it hard to get a job, and what I really want is a job in black music. I have tried record shops, radio stations etc but had no luck.

I am not depressed and I'm not ugly or weird, I'm just having some problems trying to get my life into gear. At the moment I'm not living, I'm existing. And I don't want to turn 21, and my life be the same. I don't want to get old and have regrets.

I need some advice on any of these subjects. If you think you can help, I would appreciate your opinons.

Thanks for spending time to read this.

Tae