I would prefer if there were better slightly more helpful ones than by fineboy...but thats a personal opinion. I would suggest that you talked to your Dad, I am sure that he would be alarmed that you feel this way. Tell him you need to talk and explain your problems to him as much as possible, if you cant then write him a letter and try and establish some type of better relationship with him. although he has other children I am sure he cares for you otherwise he wouldnt have you living with him If he doesnt believe how you feel...send him to the forum to check it out himself.