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05-01-07, 02:14 PM
I was just chillin, thinking about my future. You know, wit college and all that u gotta be thinkin bout ur career and family pressure mean i also gotta think about my future family. Then i thought about how people always say you have to know your past to accept your present and forge a future. It got me to question my past, who i am, you know. Sometimes i don't think about me...i just keep going on, planning to go somewhere and i really don't know how where i came from fits in to where i'm going to. this is what came to me and i wanted to share it with y'all.
I'm new by the way, so hi!!!!! sup wit u? no...excuse the language i mean, if y'all aight? My grammar be stupid sometime...forgive me, lmao
Who am i?
I carry the world inside…
I don’t often feel like I know who I am
My nationality only began a few years ago
When they began to include who I am in the forms
British passport, American born,
An Indian, polish, Syrian, Chinese in a body of Jamaican heritage
My world is fragmented into the many names to which I answer
When I have children who will teach them
What will I teach them, if I can’t teach myself?...
If I haven’t been taught?
Who is ‘I’ and where can I find she?
What am I and am I what I was taught to be?
My African heritage is so apparent in the history that I was taught
But what about my story, her story, she, he and their story.
Is it what is inside of me?
Why can’t I just be, exist?
Why is this so important to me?
My black skin is like gold to me.
More precious today then it was yesterday and so on
Something I treasure but do not understand
I fear the power or weaknesses that it gives.
Why am i?
Am I bound by colour, strapped by ‘his’tory?
The slaves before me worked hard to free me
They saved me from a world filled with limitations
But am I enslaved to the slavery that lives on
Not to be recognised, to be feared.
To be misunderstood by coloured peers.
So culturally mixed and colour blind?
My eyes are open wide
But shut firmly as what lurks behind is more disturbing.
You tell me who I am?
You tell me who I am?
You tell me WHO I AM?
We ain\'t invincible
but Lord knows we are magnificent
and blessed
Check for the positive
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