MB I think your situation is more normal. People grow and change and what I always wanted to do might not suit the desires/needs of who I am now as a person. I mean how long ago is "always"? At various stages of youth I wanted to be astronaut, fireman, policeman, doctor, boxer... during adolescence other things before realising as an adult what I'm good at, what I enjoy and what I REALLY want from life. Things I might not have known before.

I know very few people who've had ONE sole dream since they were young that overwhelmed everything and fewer still who made it happen.

What I mean isn't settling for what you can get as a secondary option but action a more evolved process. How could 5 year old Watcher possibly know about what 40 year old watcher may be like or what shaped him? You learn and dreams change. As long as the dream is still something that stretching your possibilities I think that's cool.