@Torn by life ...

If you're a young male this usually happens, guys aren't usually submissive and once they grow and explore they tend to analyse more and many end up rejecting the faith they grew up inI've walked that road and I know many who have walked it.

The most important thing now is not to let anger or insecurity fuel the energy you need to search. You'll find out in the near future that the next form of faith you adopt will be one that you will have extreme passion for and you will try to convert other people to it & such & such but after this phase you shall lose faith in those beleifs too and thats where the mountain gets steeper but knowledge comes and sadly sometimes seems to go.


Its different from all of us & family make it worse usually they'll call u crazy and even pray 4 u all night if they think you're going astray but if The Creator sayed you shall be a seeker of wisdom and truth so you shall be no matter where you hide and take refuge. You might & WILL most probably take refuge in another faith and in political/historical studies or some form of study & there will be times when more than a 1000 questions race through your head before you take your next breath and you shall endure until a time you feel you are even perhaps about to die from the burden but that's when things start to get clearer.



I borrowed this quote from Lux and its an awesome one:-
"True wisdom is less presuming than folly. The wise man doubteth often, and changeth his mind; the fool is obstinate, and doubteth not; he knoweth all things but his own ignorance." - Akhenaton