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Originally Posted by BrownBone110
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I have always had self esteem issues but as I've gotten older and grown into myself I felt as though I've overcame them.
Men have often complimented me and told me that I am pretty/beautiful/could be a model etc. But when I hang out with another female freind men will walk up and talk to them and not me. I just stand there looking like an idiot. It's like they'll take a good look at us and strike up a conversation with the other friend even if she isn't as attractive as I am. It never fails. Years ago, once my friend and I went through the drive thru at McDonald's and some guy looked right over me and asked for my friend's number in the passenger's seat. It was a real blow to the ego because I just got my hair done and I was dressed really nice, everyone told me how great I looked. Don't let it be a freind who is lightskin then I really go ignored (I am a darkskin) I feel like an ugly beast. Once I went to the mall with my lightskin best friend, and in the shoe store the salesguy completely ignored me and acted as if I didn't exist as he was chatting up a conversation with her. I even asked him a question and he didn't even answer me. Yet I visited this same store again by myself, and then he suddenly notices me and says I am beautiful. I don't get it. Am I only beautiful by myself
Even in class, there is this guy who is in my group who I can tell is attracted to me. AT least I think he is. Everytime I walk pass in the hallway he notices me and is eyeing me down (I see him doing this in the corner of my eye). Yet in class when we are doing our group project he talks to all the other women but me. He'll say a few words to me and keep it short.
When this happens I start to feel unattractive and maximize any small flaw I have about myself. I end up going home feeling incredibly ugly and never wanting to hang out with another group of women again. Sometimes I think of things I can do to correct my appearance; plastic surgery etc I just hate being looked over everytime i hang out with some female friends, I just don't have a good time. Even in clubs I hate being amongst other women because I feel like i don't have as much to offer as them. I feel like it takes too much to get noticed when you're in a room filled with other women, even if they aren't attractive. I don't have enough personality, flair, humor or confidence to stand out.
I am single 23, and haven't been in a serious relationship. I have no luck with men. I make sure I dress nice and look great but I don't know. Maybe I need to change something about myself.
can someone give me a few pearls of wisdom on this?
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Welcome to the forum first of all.
I can't speak for every man and I've been out of the dating scene for a long time now, however I think this light skinned thing you're using is simply a cop out for one, sorry. I'm not saying it doesn't happen but I'm tired of a lot of females using that excuse to save face. Just because you happen to be of a darker a hue doesn't mean a man is automatically going to bypass you to speak to your friend - plus you haven't mentioned if all your friends are lighter than you which I doubt.
Have you considered that you may be manifesting an obvious lack of confidence by your demeanor and/or what you say
(and I have a strong feeling this is what it is.....)? Do you come across as standoffish and don't know it? Are you socially awkward? Or do you walk around with a sense of entitlement?
These are things you need to ask yourself or maybe a close friend who can be honest with you? You might have to prepare to hear some serious home truths you may not like.
Some guys are simply idiots, just like how you have idiotic women. However not every guy is gonna feel you and you ain't gonna feel every guy - that's just life. I'm sure you'll reject somebody if you didn't like his vibe or found him ugly. If I'm gonna be honest I feel sorry for y'all in the dating scene in these times cos things are more ruthless now and the pain of rejection can be a be a real mutha, but at the same time you have to know how to play the game.
Start exhibiting more confidence and just relax a bit and you'll notice things will change eventually.