Shes has had the baby
Your life is now more complex
I crave the shortest call, a brief text
2 hour calls at twilight
The only time I do get

I miss you
I hear you, I understand the issue
The distance isn’t the killer
It’s the lack of knowing
Not seeing the future creates worry
The Almighty says worry not
I say send him sooner lord

I need to get away , this is the wrong avenue
Im not safe here in this situation
This passage leads to pain and dejection and I just fought to get out
And I lead myself into another battle
Your heart feels so much but there is the push and pull of what is right and wrong
Woke up and got on my knees praying to my father for no repetition of history
I ask for strength and key intuition that I protect myself from grief

I switch my phones off so I don’t get tempted,
Listening to chains.. And I haven’t laughed in awhile
Why do I do this?
Its not right.. Follow someone into the pit of doom. I skip there joyously
Like a lamb to slaughter, setting myself up

1 day im strong.. 6 days im not..

He lays there with her the baby in-between them, supposedly thinking of me
What do I believe..

God free me from myself.
Why cant I be alone, strengthen myself and wait, wait til the right person comes along
But no I go back… exactly the same.. And everyone has changed.
And I stay chained