Not sure if you meant to ask the question in a genuinely curious or rude way , but either way I'll try to answer.

I'm afraid of being judged. That's partly my own issue and I won't deny that, but it's also the issue of those who will judge me so quickly. I'm not yet at the point where I feel courageous enough to tell them and not give a damn. Mentioning this on the internet is a little easier; therefore, I don't give much of a damn about being judged on here because the likelihood of anyone on here meeting me in person is probably pretty damn slim or nonexistent.

And by the way, I'm not necessarily denying the presence of a god. I'm just not sure if god, for me, is Jah or Allah or Shinto or Buddha or (insert deity here) or exists at all. I'm not here to debate it; I was just happy to find a thread like this to speak about my experience.

Taken from Wikipedia:
Agnosticism can be subdivided into several subcategories. Recently suggested variations include:

* Strong agnosticism (also called hard agnosticism, closed agnosticism, strict agnosticism, absolute agnosticism)—the view that the question of the existence or nonexistence of an omnipotent God and the nature of ultimate reality is unknowable by reason of our natural inability to verify any experience with anything but another subjective experience.
* Weak agnosticism (also called mild agnosticism, soft agnosticism, open agnosticism, empirical agnosticism, temporal agnosticism)—the view that the existence or nonexistence of God or gods is currently unknown but is not necessarily unknowable, therefore one will withhold judgment until/if more evidence is available.
* Apathetic agnosticism (also called Pragmatic agnosticism)—the view that there is no proof of either the existence or nonexistence of God or gods, but since any God or gods that may exist appear unconcerned for the universe or the welfare of its inhabitants, the question is largely academic anyway.
* Agnostic theism (also called religious agnosticism)—the view of those who do not claim to know existence of God or gods, but still believe in such an existence. (See Knowledge vs. Beliefs)
* Agnostic atheism (also called atheistic agnosticism)—the view of those who do not know of the existence or nonexistence of God or gods, and do not believe in them. "[9]
* Ignosticism—the view that a coherent definition of God must be put forward before the question of the existence of God can be meaningfully discussed. If the chosen definition isn't coherent, the ignostic holds the noncognitivist view that the existence of God is meaningless or empirically untestable. A.J. Ayer, Theodore Drange, and other philosophers see both atheism and agnosticism as incompatible with ignosticism on the grounds that atheism and agnosticism accept "God exists" as a meaningful proposition which can be argued for or against.

Logically a person must belong to one and only one of these 3 mutually exclusive categories:

1. You believe the philosophical view that the truth value of certain claims —particularly metaphysical claims regarding theology, afterlife or the existence of god, gods, deities, or even ultimate reality— can be known.

2. You don't believe the philosophical view that the truth value of certain claims —particularly metaphysical claims regarding theology, afterlife or the existence of god, gods, deities, or even ultimate reality— can be known.

3. You have doubts about the philosophical view that the truth value of certain claims —particularly metaphysical claims regarding theology, afterlife or the existence of god, gods, deities, or even ultimate reality— can be known, though that doesn't necessarily make one officially Agnostic, but rather simply exhibiting agnostic doubt, which does not have to disqualify a belief that one can actually know truth.

As an example a person can be a Presbyterian, and not be absolutely certain that there is a God. This person simply has faith that there is without reason.