EFFORTLESS BATTLE

Seems like we never seem to moved forward
yet we are nearly at the end
feels like our emotions have been wasted
although they have been undoubtedly expressed
time and time again they have been misdirected and never meet at one point
because the meeting point would have been our love.

Constantly trying to make sense of this period that we are in
seems like my thoughts are endless
its painful not knowing when things are going to be okay.

This is not the way I wanted this chapter to be
seems fate has re written the whole story for me
leaving every put of me incomplete.

Giving up has occurred to me so many times
i even tried to end my world so i could escape
sooner or later the loneliness would have killed me anyway.

So my emptiness was temporary fulfilled
i managed the way i knew how
acted normal when deep inside i was going insane.

losing every bit of understanding in my brain
and my body's getting weak
what seemed to be happiness has developed into pain
and sometimes regret.

I am involved in something that never progresses
and is not even within my reach
i desire emotional fulfillment
but instead i'm going crazy.
- written by yaya 05/01/07