I was just browsing and reading peoples posts and stuff,Theres things I cannot share with you people cause some of you wont understand,and others will justchat shit.I like to talk deep and imagination is where you get creative,I dont want to talk about that.



Sometimes I reflect on this Life,I swear if there was an easy way out like just opening a door and enter Heaven I would.I dontlike the alternative lol I guess I just love life so much but it dont love me!

I was in a club yesterday and people were happy and stuff some people was clearly depressed like me,I wondered why? such an easy question to many problems.I looked at myself and thought why do I buy expensive shit and brand names so that I can be accepted? some people say I buy it for me! so how comes you are not to be seen with the other clothes that are not expensive and shit! am talking about the people who only buy expensive and brand name clothes.Its the image,people want to beaccepted but I wanna rebel I know and admit that I am a victim to this but atleast I acknowledge this shit I do.I also know and is okay for people to enjoy their hard earned money and splash out I am not aprejudice but I think what am doing is wrong sometimes cause theres people starving,and Orphans,etc

I dont like some of my friends either,one of them is an idiot,he impresses girls sothat they can like him.He doesn't know that girls know what he is doing,I get angry cause of him but I keep it to myself,I never and will never will impress a girl because I dont think she likes me for who I am,she has to like my longconversations,jokes lol,then after if she sticks around then shes my girl.I've come up to girls and said things to them that they cant reject me,but words like I like you!would you be my date! all the personal words I have not used in my life caused I dont want a girl to have the satisfaction of rejecting me.its unhealthy I know but it will hurt me so much lol and of cause some girls noticed that I dont say these sentimantal things and ecpect them but I just change the subect.maybe its just better to live my life like a dog and just sleep around with girls! cause theres no feelings involved its just give me the goods and am out,or maybe am just unlucky with the right down to earth girls that wont be a bitch to me whatever it is am tired of waiting cause this lifestyle of mine will rinse me out and am just gonna maybe end up with a bad girl or even worse just another junkie thats not loved in life.All I ever wanted is a girl that dont go with the hype just see the shit as it is,cause thats clever.

It looks like am gonna let loose some of my friends I dont like Fake,two face,and all them people man.I wanted to say some other things but I just forgot.

Anyone that is going through the same problems,lets fix up,and share yo story too



Dont criticise me,do it if you must,but remember its my first time POST! go easy on me now loool



Thanks for reading my story

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You seem to have a deep fear of rejection... ... But I'm sure that when you find the type of girl you want to be with, it won't matter what other girls think/thought of you. At least you're a level-headed and mature guy who knows better than to try impress, and sometimes take advatage, of females. And if they aren't impressed, I am!

As for people being fake, that's life. I've had to deal with that same problem for a very long time now and I was starting to feel that I was the only one walking around with my eyes open. ButI found that trying to understand others can help you understand yourself and even put up with them for just a while longer... It stretches your patience and helps you grow (I thinkconfused2, I have yet to feel the full effects!)

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Canshekiss..

I think most people come to a point in their life at some time and start to reflect on the past or the present. This is the easy part, as the hard part is what are you going to do about it, and whether you will commit and stick to that choice.

Youve assessed parts of your lifestyle and mentality and your deciding there is things you would like to change. To do this you need to first change yourself. If you change yourself for the better and stay away from what you have decided is not to your liking, then all you have to do is get rid of the negative and move on with the positive. What makes this hard for so many is that you will experiance a zone of transition between your current lifestyle and the one you desire. This transitionary could be very long or very short, and at times you will feel like you are getting nowhere and want to give up, but if you persevere you will get what you want.

It is not easy to implement and suceed with the change you desire if it means giving up current friends, partners, relationships, pastimes, recreational activities and maybe even your livelyhood. Nothing is easy in this life, everything requires hard work with many pitfalls along the way. However, you have decided what you want and you should go for it or at least give it a try. it is those that persevere against all the odds to suceed that reap the best rewards in this life and the next.